After crying my eyeballs out from happiness and peeing on another 5 sticks I still couldn't believe it. I was pregnant! That time in my life I've dreamt and fantasized much about was here, and I couldn't wait. Motherhood!
Meanwhile 4,5 months in I've been reading several books, trying to educate myself on all the different ways of childbearing and birth. I notice a lot of grouping going on when it comes to pregnancy. There's the modern medical group of people. People that prefer to see a obstetrician, do the testing and screening recommended during pregnancy. They choose to deliver their babies at the hospital mostly under influence of drugs such as the famous epidural (rarely unmedicated).
There's the holistic approach in which people prefer to see a midwife during their pregnancy and often opt for a natural vaginal unmedicated (home) birth.
Brian and I never doubted that we wanted to approach this pregnancy as close as mother nature intended. I believe us women are designed to give birth and that our bodies know how to. I'm planning on a home birth but will go to hospital if medically necessary.
I believe this grouping is stemmed from midwifery and modern medicine birth approach being so different from one another. Are women being properly informed to be able to make the best choices for them and their baby? Lots of information on both subjects is widely available. I guess it's just a matter of personal choice.
The cultural assumption here in the US is that the hospital is a safe place to give birth. But the problems that arise in labor are often created once the women arrives at the hospital. Why? Because the hospital is a fear based environment. A humans body responds to that fear like any other mammal's. Contractions start to space out or even stop. There is science about all kinds of birth subjects such as the length of hospital labor before intervention to speed up delivery (pitocin, emergency cesarean etc) . A lot of it is driven by economic demand. There's no money in being patient in labor. More babies delivered one way or another means more money made! None of this has anything to do with the beauty of being a strong women perfectly well able to deliver a child or one on one care. Of course there are exceptions where a hospital is needed to provide the necessary medical help.
So far I've had 18 weeks of happy pregnancy! I love every bit about it and feel incredibly lucky for not throwing up or being super sick. My belly is starting to show which is super fun! I've always been on the tiny side so It's been incredible to see my tiny framed body change into a woman's body ready to give birth and nurse.
I'm starting to put together a list of all the baby things 'needed' but man is there a lot of stuff on the market these days. Any tips recommendations from experienced moms out there are more than welcome. I'm all about keeping things simple and environmentally friendly (not buying a ton of plastic made things for example).
We choose for minimal intervention during this pregnancy. This Thursday we'll have our first ultrasound (and probably last unless more needed for medical reasons). We've also decided to keep the gender a surprise until delivery. My sis and mom just booked their tickets to come visit mid june! So much exciting stuff, every day feels like getting those tickles you get riding a rollercoaster!
Here's my 18 week belly pic!
Much love XXXX