My mind is always full of thoughts running overhours every day. I'm an introvert, always have been. I leave extrovertism to those who are good at it! Try talking to people that don't know me well. They seem to feel like they have to act polite when you try to have a conversation with them. Nodding their heads not sure to reply with a yes or no form or a sentence... Now I'm aware I happen to slur my words and on top of that speak so quiet insects could only hear me. (Working on it) But please just tell me when you didn't hear or understood me for crying out loud I'm not an idiot. Foreign (different) is not stupid. It's weird when people respond to you like you're an alien from another planet and makes for one empty unreal conversation.
I actually love engaging in good conversations as long as it's something I'm familiar with but I'm also perfectly happy by myself, talking to no one and take on the observer role.
I think about the language difference and wonder how different it would be if people here would know me in Dutch. Would they see me different? Would I be different today? I hear myself saying words in english and when I translate them later on in my head I think "I would never even use these words in Dutch". Even tough I say things such as diaphragm instead of diagram I can only choose to laugh at myself!
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